je ne veux pas travailler
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after catching 3 hrs of slp on sat night, i had to get up at 3 to send my kor to the budget terminal to catch his flight to chiangmai.. Gosh... feeling envious of his carefree lifestyle now. Its as if he can go anywhere he wants to... no fair!!! yeh.. Thank goodness for baby who accompanied me on the car trip if not i wld have surely got caught by the TP for speeding. Oops.. Heh. after getting home at 5, I decided tt it wasn't worthwhile going back to bed again so I did an insane thing. Changed into my running gear and headed out to the wet and quiet streets for a run. Hearing the pitter-patter of the raindrops and the slooshing sound of the tyres as they make their way thru the puddles certainly incalculate a sense of peace in me. I was calm and apeased with the world.
Got back home just in time to shower and change up for church. then it was followed by a quick trip to the salon for a trim. (which obviously didn't work out coz my mum says my hair resembles a broom now).. ARGH.. made a quick stop over at balmoral to get some pastries and the lovely marble cake. Some for mummy and some for Melvin. Hehe. Glad he liked the beef curry puff. Its famous!!! hehe.
The rest of my afternoon was taken away by the need to carry out the reece at bukit timah hill. Good slooshy, muddy fun.. haha
why dun u just kill me instead?
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bloody worthless piece of shit... not working...
taking lyke ages to load...
freak...
taking lyke ages to load...
freak...
i'm losing it
so many things are not right today.
paranoia is all i have.
paranoia is all i have.
I GOT IT!!!
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*click* BS803 has been added.
HUH? (stunned for a while)
oh...OOOHHHHHH!!!! HURRAY!!!!
I'm such a lucky gurl today. Heh.
EM107
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Too bad..i ain't got much of a choice. Couldn't get my first choice BS803..unlike some lucky folks..*nudge*..RAWR.. so i have to settle for second best..hmph..or wat seemed like second best to me. Point is I just wanna clear all my electives by this semester and I've only got one GE left to fulfill!!! HURRAY!!! so EM107 it is then...
Attended my first lecture for the module today. It was ok... the lecturer was rather long-winded though. he cld go on and on about the definition of 'Safety' for at least 10 mins. My goodness... its just a simple word for god's sake. But other then tt, I found the lecture rather interesting..refreshing in a sense, like a break from the usual physics and aero stuff that we take everyday. Well, at least I didn't feel like slping halfway thru the insanely long 3 hours lecture. Kudos to me! tee hee...
Most interesting part of the lecture wld have to be about electrical safety. was reminded of my near death experience on top of Tahan last summer. Found out that human skin when dry has a resistance of 0.1 - 0.6 mega-ohms but is reduced to a meagre 1000 ohms when it is wet..making us very likely conductors (especially in the case of lightning strikes). In the notes there was a scale of the different magnitudes of current and the effects of the electrical current on the body. Think what i suffered during the incident was a current of 50-150mA but in the lower range though. Its effects: extremely painful shock, respiratory arrest(breathing stops), severe muscle contraction. Flexor muscles may cause holding on; extensor muscles may cause intense pushing away. Death is possible. Thank God i lived on...
Recalling the fateful night, my heart is full of fear and i feel it pulsating through my chest. Having turned in early that night, the team had already settled in to rest in our tents in preparation for the tough climb the next day. Torrential rain was experienced two days in a row and as a result the rocky camping ground was soaking wet. It was a pretty pitiful sight, staring at a ground filled with pools of water. Slping was an entirely grotesque experience as the floor was immensely wet and the tent did nothing to protect us against the chill and the cold. But slowly, even the most restless of the bunch fell into gentle slumber after some time, probably due to the exertion of having scaled and descended the summit the day before. That night, we camped on high grounds, on the ridge of the magnificant mountain, exposed to strong winds that tore at the tent and shook it furiously, never did we realise that slping on such exposed grounds with a floor as wet as a swimming pool would prove lethal... It was a rainy night, lightning flashes frequently lighted the sky overhead and thunder rumbled nonstop... Aware of the situation outside, i shifted constanly in my sleep, feeling cold and miserable. Suddenly, I saw a bright flash of light before me, and almost immediately, my body jerked up into a sitting position. At that moment, it felt like ALL the muscles in my body had contracted involuntarily. I couldn't breathe, had no control of my muscles..pain wreathed through my entire body... In my mind, I was strike with the immediate fear of death, I struggled to gain control. I saw my mom calling out to me. So this is what it feels like to die. the pain was excrutiating, my jaw dropped and I screamed out..but nothing came out from my throat. A silent scream... My world was just a piece of bright mozaic and a high pitch buzzing sound in my ear.. It seemed like ages before my body slumped down on the tent floor, exhausted from the exhertion. I was fatigued... feeling bruised and battered... I struggling to breath, my chest hurt and my throat was parched. Thank goodness i was still in good mental shape and figured out that we got struck by lightning... a one in a million case... Then, I was paralysed from waist down as I was not able to feel both my legs and worst still not able to control any of the muscles. The tent was filled with a burnt smell, my worst fears played in my head. ' what if my legs were terribly burnt..and i can't walk forever?'... I panicked.. thank goodness after shining the torch light on them, they were perfectly fine except for a burn mark on my ankle due to the current passing through. It took a million years before i gained composure of my legs again and I was able to move my toes. The next day, I found out that I was screaming throughout the whole incident. gosh. Thank God that I survived the incident.. not many pple live through a lightning strike to be able to tell the tale of it. It must be God's grace...
But even as trekking has almost cost me my life, I never gave up on it. Its something that i enjoy doing. Pushing myself, challenging my limits, the physical and mental exhertion, play a huge part in helping me realise who am I and what i'm capable of. I will never stop climbing...
a picture taken after the fateful night at gedung.
what is love?
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Why do pple love? Can the world exist in perfect harmony without love? would there be hate in this world if there was no love? wldn't everyone just exist in a simple state of motion if we didn't practise a certain judgement or favouritism, to love someone over another or to hate another?
Can love ever be like in the scriptures, patient, kind, does not envy, and does not boast?
In my opinion, tt is highly impossible. Love is far from perfect... then again, love exist on different levels. Love for the boyfriend/girlfriend, love for a friend, love for your family and love for the almighty God. All these are entirely different and manifest themselves in different ways thru different acts and methods of demonstration. On the contrary, perhaps its all very subjective. For me, Love in these 4 context do have major differences but are all parts of each other, the latter being the greatest of them all.
Love for a boyfriend/ girlfriend equals to admiration, willingness to devote time and emotions to a relationship. To long to be together, to feel a strange longing to never part. As naive and childish as it sounds...true love btw a man and a woman requires some aspect of sparks, 'sweeping you off your feet' kinda romance, and foolish acts. Its all part and parcel of it all, of which, lacking these would only lead to something dull and drab. Not my kind of romance story.
As i was listening to the song truly, madly, deeply this morning "I want to stand with you on a mountain I want to bathe with you in the sea I want to lay like this forever Until the sky falls down on me", I came to a realisation tt despite how silly it sounds, that is exactly wat i wanted to do. To be with the one I love, just to feel his presence in all the right moments, to capture the moment of bliss in my head. Like a perfect moment caught in a frame, to be stored in the depths of my heart forever. That is what is like to fall in love.
Love for friends on the other hand is very different. Lets state the basic difference, there is little or hardly any physical contact to speak of, unless u're toking about the fights or mini boxing matches frens often get into. But besides that, there is no need to touch, to feel, however if there is, then u had better be cautious. Hehe. Here, love within friends is more about concern and care. To watch for each others back in all situations, to stand up for friends. On the whole, we're talking more about loyalty. But then again, like looking for the perfect partner, looking for a good friend is also a tough task on its on. Putting common accquaintances aside, a good friend usually someone who either has common goals, idealogy or someone who is willing to share the burden of working towards ur goals with you. As they say, accquaintances are easy to make but good friends take years to find. In this selfish and conceited world that we love in, simply having to be there for someone and having to bear the brunt of the sufferings of another is rarely on the top of the to-do list of many. Therefore, it is difficult to find a good friend. For me, a good friend is someone whom i can enjoy time spent with him/her, to feel relaxed and chilled. To enjoy the unawkward silence btw the both of us, just to sit and watch the world go by.
For the family, It is a very different story altogether. Since young, the concept of love was instilled into us at the youngest age. Remember when our mommies used to tease and ask us " do u love mommy?". It was evident to us that the mandatory correct answer would have to be yes. Though we didn't understand the meaning of love, we understood that being cared for and doted upon by our parents called for the need to display affection and love back to our parents. As though love was a present tt we have to return back to whoever showered it upon us. Recall how difficult it was for our parents to teach us to love our obnoxious brothers/sisters whom tend to bully and kick us around. despite this, as we grow older, we come to a realisation tt family are the closest people we have ard and that after the many years of living in the same vicinity in close contact, sharing childhood memories; we have come to love the 'strangers' living under the same roof as us. Our siblings, our parents, our family.
lAstly, love for our almighty God is undoubtly the greatest of them all. To be able to accept and return the love of an invicible being is never easy. the invicible being being a character with powers beyond our wildest imagination, a God with the ability to crush enemies to bits, yet with the heart as soft as silk, one that allows him to love even the most vicious of man; to love his enemies and even those who have persecuted him, tortured him. That character is our Lord and almighty God. The definition of love of the concept of love wld not even be clear to us if he never did demonstrated it to us in the first place. He has liberated us.... We love because he first loved us.
If I speak in the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal. If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but have not love, I am nothing. If I give all I possess to the poor and surrender my body to the flames, but have not love, I gain nothing. Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away. (1 Corinthians 13:1-8)
似曾相识
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那一瞥 人潮如海的街
和你擦身而过 有些恍神一再回头
她发现 我的心不在焉
我却无法解释是谁 乱了我生活
该怎么做才能把回忆都删除 那错过的幸福 我像跌入迷雾
遇见你有种似曾相识的感觉 Woo
仿佛有同样感受在你眼底 Woo
能不能让我们再相遇 能不能让我再次认识你 似曾相识有如游戏
Wu~ 似曾相识 Yeah Yeah Yeah~
那一瞥 陷入你的世界
和你擦身而过 却忘了要往哪里走 (要往哪里走)
她感觉 我的心看不见
我该怎么解释是你 乱了我生活
该怎么做 (该怎么做) 才能把回忆都删除
那错过的幸福 我像跌入迷雾 Woo Woo-Oh
遇见你有种似曾相识的感觉 Woo
我看见同样的感受在你眼底 Woo~
能不能让我们再相遇 能不能让我再次认识你 似曾相识有如游戏
遇见你有种似曾相识的感觉 Woo
是否在前世我们有一段过去 Woo
能不能这次改变命运 能不能这次让我真的爱你 还是往事别再提起 Yeah Yeah
Woo~ Wu Woo Woo~ Ma MaMa Ma MaMa~
似 曾 相 识 似曾相识 Woo Woo Ho~ Ha Wu-Woo~ Yeah-Yeah-Yeah~ Woo~
遇见你有种似曾相识的感觉 Oh~
是否在前世我们有一段过去 (我们有)
能不能帮我把你忘记 能不能帮我停下对你追寻
或许我能不再想你
遇见你有种似曾
见你有种似曾 相识的 感觉
evil, backstabbing world
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oh yesh.. I wanna make a shout-out to my fren!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY going out to ZHIHENG!!!
two years back.. we were in the same section back at sierra. Remember him as the macho, garang guy who ALWAYS want to carry everything.. crazy fella. Used to love to squeeze him as we marched down the corridors. Hehe. Then..we became 'clubbing kakis'...those were the crazy days back in the holidays. Had so much fun didn't we? doing insane stuff in a drunken stupor. hehe. Guess we have both grown out of it. Hehe. Anyway.. glad tt my fren is doing well in nus. Take care dear and study hard!!!
teach me tonight
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been listening to this song on repeat mode. Teach me tonight by Elliot Yamin, a contestant off AMerican Idol. Can't remember which season though. But he rocks yar!!! he's voice is soooo smooth. Like velvet.. Gosh..
Did you say (that) I've got a lot to learn
Well don't think I'm trying not to learn
Since this is the perfect spot to learn
Teach me tonight
Starting with the abc of it
Getting right down to the xyz of it
Help me solve the mystery of it
Teach me tonight
The sky's a blackboard high above you
And if a shooting star goes by
I'll use that star to write 'i love you'
A thousand times across the sky
One thing isn't very clear my love
Teachers shouldn't stand so near my love
Graduation's almost here my love
You'd better teach me tonight
I've played loves scenes in a flick or two
And I've also met a chick or two
But I still can learn a trick or two
Hey teach me tonight
I who thought I knew the score of it
Kind of think I should know much more of it
Off the wall, the bed, the floor of it
Hey teach me tonight
The midnight hours come slowly creeping
When there's no one there but you
There must be more to life than sleeping
Single in a bed for two
What I need most is post graduate
What I feel is hard to articulate
If you want me to matriculate
You'd better teach me tonight
What do you get for lessons
Teach me - come on and teach me - teach me tonight
cheeky..i like..
teach me tonight
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been listening to this song on repeat mode. Teach me tonight by Elliot Yamin, a contestant off AMerican Idol. Can't remember which season though. But he rocks yar!!! he's voice is soooo smooth. Like velvet.. Gosh..
Did you say (that) I've got a lot to learn
Well don't think I'm trying not to learn
Since this is the perfect spot to learn
Teach me tonight
Starting with the abc of it
Getting right down to the xyz of it
Help me solve the mystery of it
Teach me tonight
The sky's a blackboard high above you
And if a shooting star goes by
I'll use that star to write 'i love you'
A thousand times across the sky
One thing isn't very clear my love
Teachers shouldn't stand so near my love
Graduation's almost here my love
You'd better teach me tonight
I've played loves scenes in a flick or two
And I've also met a chick or two
But I still can learn a trick or two
Hey teach me tonight
I who thought I knew the score of it
Kind of think I should know much more of it
Off the wall, the bed, the floor of it
Hey teach me tonight
The midnight hours come slowly creeping
When there's no one there but you
There must be more to life than sleeping
Single in a bed for two
What I need most is post graduate
What I feel is hard to articulate
If you want me to matriculate
You'd better teach me tonight
What do you get for lessons
Teach me - come on and teach me - teach me tonight
cheeky..i like..
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