virtual insanity
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feel so empty inside...
guess my brain isn't working any longer.
I crave for sleep.
Bloody Shaker...
Incoherent sentences.
i seriously need a nap.
you'll think of me
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I woke up early this morning around 4am
With the moon shining bright as headlights on the interstate
I pulled the covers over my head and tried to catch some sleep
But thoughts of us kept keeping me awake
Ever since you found yourself in someone else's arms
I've been tryin' my best to get along
But that's OK
There's nothing left to say,
but
Take your records, take your freedom
Take your memories
I don't need'em
Take your space and take your reasons
But you'll think of me
And take your cat and leave my sweater
'Cause we have nothing left to weather
In fact I'll feel a whole lot better
But you'll think of me, you'll think of me
I went out driving trying to clear my head
I tried to sweep out all the ruins that my emotions left
I guess I'm feeling just a little tired of this
And all the baggage that seems to still exist
It seems the only blessing I have left to my name
Is not knowing what we could have been
What we should have been
So
Take your records, take your freedom
Take your memories I don't need'em
Take your space and take your reasons
But you'll think of me
And take your cat and leave my sweater
'Cause we have nothing left to weather
In fact I'll feel a whole lot better
But you'll think of me
Someday I'm gonna run across your mind
Don't worry, I'll be fineI'm gonna be alright
While you're sleeping with your pride
Wishing I could hold you tightI'll be over you
And on with my life
So take your records, take your freedom
Take your memories I don't need'em
And take your cat and leave my sweater
'Cause we have nothing left to weather
In fact I'll feel a whole lot better
But you'll think of me
phantom of the opera
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sunbeam no. 1:
Phantom of the Opera concert!!! (i'm gonna be watching the opening night show!!! YAY!!! its gonna be spectacular i tell u. best seats in the hse too! nothing beats tt man. Haha)
sunbeam no. 2:
Yoga
its simply the best yar... supposedly..its meant to benefit the nervous and glandular system, quieten the mind and recondition body and soul.. Sound good? to me at least. Gotta build up the physical strength and balance to manage more advance poses.
sunbeam no. 3:
Music and Lyrics
he's outta my life
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my sombre attitude towards the whole affair that took a turn for the worst
overnight has left me alone... all by myself. Been hanging on for too long, even the last piece of thread has been removed from my grasp. perhaps it has been the cold attitude, his nonchalent responses, causing my fragile heart to harden. I shall no longer question myself, to blame myself for everything that has went wrong. its about time i packed up and hit the roads again, face the wretched world with whats left of me. I will not fall and I will not falter for the Lord walks beside me on my treachorous journey.
JUst like the lyrics from far away by nickelback
cause you knoe,
i love you,
i loved you all along,
and i missed you,
been far away for far too long.
I keep dreaming that you'll be with me
and you'll never go.
Stop breathing if
I don't see you anymore.
Take care..( dun work urself to bits okie) and may you achieve whatever u aim for in life. God bless.
anger management
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om...Om....
TA MA DE!!! (all the vulgarities spill out)
Just Like before......
Everything you say to me
Takes me one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break
I need a little room to breath
Cuz I'm one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break
got shot down..
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came to skool today and to our delight our aero design group were delighted to observe tt only sunil was ard to make the evaluation on our first presentation. Unfortunately, being the third group lined up, we were unfortunate enough to encounter the situation where our dear SHAKER made his grand entrance... gosh, then, we knew we were in for it. Guess like the Samuel said, that man is seriously lacking love in his life so much for so tt our plan was some sort or launching an attack on his soft-spot, archilles heel. As a result, he showed strong dislike or resistance against anything our group said throughout the presentation. We knew we were done for... Oh well.. what can i say.. his expectations of his 'bright and brilliant aerospace students' are certainly over-bearing.
then the rest of the day wore on..followed by the maths quiz.. gosh.. for me it was O-K. was astonished by the fact tt i cld at least derieve an answer for both questions given tt I have hardly touched any tuts the whole semester *woops*. Yep..but it certainly is a minor achievement and worth me waking up early in the morning at 3am to revise. Tee hee.. guess u all must be thinking i'm nuts now. LOOK, i had no choice ok..had a super early night k..was just tired from all the thinking. haha.
kk.. starting to feel very slpy..gosh. gotta prepare for bed now lest i fall asleep at the computer again. Bah..back to school tmr again... dreads..
what good is a heart?
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what good is a love if u're not gonna choose it?
ur heart is beating and its for a reason.
if you're not willing to start, what good is heart?
sometimes life pulls the plug on something u think can last forever. I agree tt we do not have control over certain things in life no matter how much we want to be in charge, to dominate the situation. But God holds the winning hand, so we have to do his abiding. That part I do understand. But still i venture on my relentless search for love and freedom... like a blind rat in a maze. Bumps and bruises are bound to occur.
u tell me that i'm slipping thru our fingers. But has it ever occured to you that perhaps you're the one not holding on tight enough? Being in the ever viscous state that i am, i am bound to runneth over.
the last straw...
a negligble existance..
an insuppressable pain...
a head full of messed up thought...
will you love me again?
u learn something new everyday...
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here's a fact of the day for u:A lux is equal to the total intensity of light that falls on a one square meter surface that is one foot away from the point source of light.
hehe..pardon me for the hard core facts..its tech comm at work i tell you. Haha. Just got hold of the lux meter today and without any technical advice from the lab staff at all, we're sent off on a journey to explore this gadget ourselves..tt explains why i'm stuck in the computer lab now doing some minor research. Thank goodness the apparatus ain't tt hard to manage. Hey..its worth at least S$200 k..dun play play. haha
NOw..I'm caught in a whirlwind of jobs and tasks to fulfill. Gosh... one of the most massive ones on my hands now wld be the subject matching with my 'future' school *praying with hands tightly clasped*.. Gosh.. they dun even have the specific subject codes and modules online lor. LOUSY!!! haha. oh well.. its gonna be one hell of a ride trying to fix everything up. Thank goodness for Sui... everything seems better having him ard. tee hee. *smiles*
There's just so much to work on now.. yet my mind still drifts off into a world where anxiety and depression takes over. I've got to let go.. seriously..this is not doing me any good...
orite..luv u all. Gotta get down to business right now. Facing the witch in a few minutes time..
just heard of some people spoiling market in our design project.. ANIMATIONS and DESIGNER TOILETS?!?! wth..
i'm not at home in my own home
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Recieved a piece of funny news a few days back. A trial at something out of the ordinary has seen me opening a path like no other. BUt being the wild child tt i am, instead of serious contemplation, I have jumped at the opportunity. apparently, my application for instep has come through and i MIGHT be on my way to poland, warsaw university of technology next semester. the reason why i stress on might is that all this is still tentative as subject matching and the rest of the tiresome stuff comes straight after. the thought of being in an exotic country..far from home..is just something so foreign..so intriguing. a chance at escapism... for now..we'll just have to see how it goes. I am elated at the results though. Congrats to all the other sucessful appeals... Janan, Samuel, Gun Kiat and Kianping. of course to my Bestie yar.. ( its more than just coincidence yar?)
in a while.. I'll be on my way to town. Made a drastic move a few days ago, signed up a short stint membership at true yoga www.trueyoga.com/. I thought tt it wld be highly beneficial and i entered the program hoping tt my leg wld make faster recovery. I'm just thrilled at all the equipment and luxuries enjoyed by members.. the gym is HUMONGOUS i tell u!!! haha.. u must be thinking i'm sort of a mountain tortoise right? haha.. maybe i am. So will be attending yoga in a short moment... feels kinda weird in tt sense. But oh well, everything good is worth a try right?
surprise call
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enough of the nonsense.. since its the first day of the month. Decide to make an effort to post an entry up. However encountered some sort of writer's block... Guess with all the raw emotions flowing ard these days..its just hard to pen it down.
ever encountered a time when u come across a song tt expresses all of your own emotions. Here's one for my current state of mind.
Listen -- Beyonce
To the song here in my heart
A melody I start
but can't complete
Listen To the sound from deep within
It's only beginning to find release
Oh the time has come
For my dreams to be heard
They will not be pushed aside and turned
Into your own all 'cause you won't listen
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