*yawnz*

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Feeling awfully domesticated today... Auntie Nora is back in Philipines for the xmas season. So its up to me to prepare the meals for the family. Woke up late, dragged byself out of bed...assessed the situation. Appeareared my brother didn't seem to concerned about his lunch. I cldn't let the poor guy starve so i went down to preparing lunchie for Kor under the constant reminder of Jiahui jie to make sure tt Kor ate his lunch. We both know that he is a VERY VERY LAZY fella, so someone's gotta do the dirty work.But it was rather simple. Just cooked some rice and then seasoned the meat to make our all time favourite steamed mince meat. Meanwhile while lunch was still cookin' away in the kitchen, the boiling water whistling away in the wok and steam gushing out from the sides, i recieved a call from the majesty...

Bah.wat majesty??? It was just mummy calling to make a special order for tonite...Shepherd's pie! coz she had a sudden crazing for beef...(tok about pregnant women...NONO..dun be mistaken..my mum ain't pregnant. Wld be a tad farnie at her age too..Hmph) Yeh..so I nonchanlently agreed to it since I had nothing better to do anyway..
So after on it was a short trip to cold storage to stock up on the missin' ingredients. That went pretty well and soon I was back home cookin' up a storm..and of coz..creating a mess out of the kitchen. (hey..but i do clean up after myself okie!!!)

Melvin joined us for dinner too...It was good. Glad tt my parents got along so well with him..wait.. i think i said it wrongly, rather..he got along so well with my parents. Woops... Haha. Yep. Dinner was pleasant despite the many comments from my little brother...But good or bad, it doesn't reallie get to me.. I'm my own worst critique...

Menu for the nite:






Mummy's fav: Shepherd's Pie







Dessert: Strawberry lemon pie (i learnt to make jam from scratch today!!! by trial and error coz i cldn't find the strawberry puree in the supermart. haha)

Sides: Steamed Mixed Vegetables

+ Red wine...


Anyway, its my birthday in a few days. *bleah*..still no plans yet. (Dazed look) Can't be bothered reallie. Its just another birthday. Only an occasion to 'celebrate' myself getting a year older... a year closer to my death, is that in any case a good cause for celebration.. NAH!!! dun think so... heh.

Just recieved invites to the launch of St James Power Station. Looks kinda exciting... quite intrigued by the structural design of the place. Shld look pretty awesome with its 5 storey high ceilings...Hmph. maybe i shld go check it out sometime.. Also got invites to the lauch of The Clinic..which has been the constant rave on class 95. situated at the cannery... the website is erm..how do describe it.. Weird and neurotic. Very strange indeed. Haha.

Orite..gotta go to bed now... apparently stubborn baby refuses to go to bed without me going to bed at the same time. *bleah*.. ORITE..COMING!!!. Au revoir.

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I stare into the mirror,
to see a face staring back.
A face I want to see closer,
a face that I lack.

I apply the eyeliner smoothly,
and lip gloss like a river.
under this makeup I bury,
my feelings I never deliver.

And the face that smiles back at me,
is a face that is unknown.
For the girl I show everybody,
is a girl who's always alone.

RAT race photos..

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Hey peeps..more photos from ytd... cld only upload it today as my camera went flat after my dearest Geok took it away to snap away at the participants *pout*..hehe..kidding. u did a great job wit the photos! Thank goodness i've still got my camera phone to rely on. Alright..enjoy the spread!

Chongmeng, our dearest SPO for ATC! he's da best in the job i tell you. Participants at the start line after I did my final debrief.


teams..running.. hey, or rather walking..*arghz*


at the swimming complex..heading off to their next checkpoint --chinese gardens


teams playing card games with the station masters at settlers cafe (holland v)
caution: gamblers at work
Main comm and helpers for RAT race... A million thanks to all of u for making the race possible!


climbing at toa payoh safra


want a taste of our EXOTIC cusine in the mystery bowls?


= fried grasshoppers (BIG ONES!!! ), dried toads, uncooked bittergourd with garlic and wasabi..GROSS!!!







Teams at the last checkpoint at esplanade




before making their final dash towards the finish line!!!





SMILE everybody! (happie participants at the finish line...)

too bad i'm too lazy to upload ALL the photos on.besides there are TOO MANY!!! haha. Yep. Also, didn't manage to capture some of the activities at some checkpoints like ford factor, xiao guilin, bedok reservoir and east coast park bowling alley. So you cld imagine how FUN the race was.... YIPEE!

kk..too round it all off on a sweet note..lets not forget the Babes in the spot line..WAH LA!!!


tts all folks!!!

Race against time!!!

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the long wait is finally over.. *phew*... the long awaited RAT race finally commenced today!!! after all tt preparation, we could finally see the REAL event take place. at last i heave a sigh of relief. (tee hee..knowing tt i can start my true holiday after this event). But putting the sweet ending aside, I must admit it was more of a nerve wrecking experience than one tt we had anticipated to run smoothly without a glitch. First of all, we made a major error in the beginning of the race..which somehow dampened the spirits of the programmers including I. But somehow i felt tt the best we could do was to lessen the carried on effects by making sure that the same mistakes were not committed at the subsequent stations. That was the best we could do to remedy the situation.

So after the first station, I was sent to Bedok to unload the kayaks as well to settle the other logistics. Yet again another panic-ridden experience as we met with some other crop ups like a delay in the arrival of teams due to heavy rain..and even our lorry breaking down in the midst of transportation of kayaks. Sigh..the waits were long..and accusations and mistakes were rampant... But then again, I agree that the strength and organisation of a team is only truly revealed in the face of unexpected events. Its the ability to face up to these challenges and stand together that defines a good and capable team.
But despite the chaos churning in the heads of the many organisers, the reservoir retained its peaceful nature...

Following this, I went to my station in charge which was at toa payoh safra. Challenge was simple, 2 pple from each team to climb 2 seperate walls. the straight wall, if you are unable to scale to the top would result in your team incurring a time addition of 30mins and the other wall, if you are able to scale to the middle and touch the grip (above the overhang) would result in a time deduction of 20mins and further scaling it to the top will allow another 10mins deduction on top of that. EASY huh..wait till u see the wall!!! haha..kudos to all those participants tt managed to scale the wall. YOU'RE GOOD!!! heh. and many thanks to my wall crew from pumpfest for helping out with the setting up of the wall and the belaying of contestants. Munir, Kelvin, Aaron and Zhenhan..xie xie ni men. Had loads of fun goofing around wit u guys.

Though the whole race was mistake-laden mostly due to the miscommunication btw the logistics and the programmers side. I felt that the race was a mini- success..and the efforts from everybody was commendable considering the short amount of time we were given to pull this race together and the appearance of the exams right smack in the middle of all our preparation. As they say, what doesn't kill us is only gonna make us stronger. Lets have faith that all our mistakes we make now will serve to be our lessons learnt and tt we may not commit them once again in the REAL race..ATC! ~jiayou everybody

favourite pic of the day... Zhenhan and Smelly Ben-Ben

goodnite everybody...

the princess needs her beauty sleep (which she seriously lacks now..) *Yawnz*..

Busy as a bee...

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How I wish I could surrender my soul;
Shed the clothes that become my skin;
See the liar that burns within my needing.
How I wish I'd chosen darkness from cold.
How I wish I had screamed out loud,
Instead I've found no meaning.

I guess it's time I run far, far away;
find comfort in pain,
All pleasure's the same: it just keeps me from trouble.
Hides my true shape, like Dorian Gray.
I've heard what they say,
but I'm not here for trouble.
It's more than just words: it's just tears and rain.


How I wish I could walk through the doors of my mind;
Hold memory close at hand,
Help me understand the years.
How I wish I could choose between Heaven and Hell.
How I wish I would save my soul.
I'm so cold from fear.

I guess it's time I run far, far away;
find comfort in pain,
All pleasure's the same: it just keeps me from trouble.
Hides my true shape, like Dorian Gray.
I've heard what they say, but I'm not here for trouble.
Far, far away;
find comfort in pain.
All pleasure's the same: it just keeps me from trouble.
It's more than just words: it's just tears and rain.

been rather busy lately..trying to catch my breathe. Running ard..school, home..meetings, briefings..Gosh! RAT race..WAH! its tommorrow btw. After this..can take a breather for 3 weeks before work on the REAL thing, Adventure Trail Challenges commences. ~arghz

but apart from all the work..there's always time for fun!!! so it was off to dbl o last nite. Guess its true that Aero pple aren't much of club go-ers. They just aren't warmed up to the idea of getting yourself high on booze and shaking your booty on the dance floor. Its just illogical by their standards. Oh well, perhaps that's why i'm considered one of the stupider one in the course. Gosh, and now the truth comes clean...

So i was dancing with serene and pingting... and i realised tt I was infact surrounded by couples.. couples entangled in each other. Kissing, touching dancing..as though they were submerged in a world of their own, oblivious to the onlooking stares. I was jealous. Suddenly I felt so lonely. Guess it has been quite some time that I've gone clubbing with my gfs and not my bf. All of a sudden I missed him...
Woke up early this morning to the excited shrills of a hysterical girl over the phone. It was an overseas call from hongkong! Karen..haha..my gurl.. 2nd time in a row I am helping her to register her subjects. pss...you owe me big time..WAHAHA. But then again..I would do anything for this gurl. A very good friend of mine... gladly listen to her whinings everyday; about the numerous pimples popping out on her flawless skin and her cramps..Haha. Love ya Babez..enjoy yourself in Japan!

Karen...the bimb-bitch??? hehe

innocent lovin'

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had a great day today. Its just one of those carefree days...when u are aware of how much more time you have in your hands.. knowing that the tempo can be slowed down. I just relish times like these when any form of planning is abolished, where we are aimless and wandering nomads in the hustle and bustle of the city. Knowing that you can just enjoy being in the moment... being with Baby tt is.

We went to watch casino royale today. Which was an absolutely FABULOUS show!!! i kid u not.. the action involved in the movie is very different as compared to the usual bond movies which focused more on the high-tech gadgets. In this movie, it show cases Bond as a cold-hearted killer, highly capable in terms of closed arm combat, speed and strength. His tolerance of pain is highly admirable in the movie as he 'gets his balls scratched' by the evil, sadistic bad guys. Overall, it was a good movie which had a high worth of entertainment value. A MUST-WATCH even for the masses who aren't die-hard james bond fans.. like me. tee hee.

Kk..enough of all the sweet talk already. Gotta cut loose all the angst inside of me... Was outraged today by 'somebody'. Gathering from my character, impulsive and rash, i get irritated easily. therefore approximately 1/2 a day from now, I won't hold and grudges anymore. So spare me for the vulgarities and the crude language that I maybe spouting in the next few lines...
so the scenario was me..pissed and angry and super super tired from the day's activities and the lack of sleep the previous night further contributing to my foul mood. I had rushed home and cut short the day's outing with baby to send an important document to the rest of the RAT commitee programmers and of course i wasn't feeling too good about it. WHY? becoz i wanted to spend more time with baby. DUH! kk... i'll cut to the chase. Point is..I was exhausted...and feeling kinda cranky... then mummy comes home late, asks a whole bunch of nosey questions which i dutifully attempted to answer, and turns around to step on my tail! RAWR!!! WTF!!! God..i was furious.. u have no idea.. sometimes i wish i cld stuff her mouth and stop the insensitive remarks from flowing...
the sentence that triggered it all:
She said: "Don't spend too much of Melvin's money lar"


WTF!!! i mean..Its not as if I dun have my own money to spend? DO i look lyke some sort of money-sucking machine to you... GOD NO!!! pls..i ain't some cheap, materialistic girlfriend that clings onto her boyfriend for branded goods and whatsoever okie? pls DO NOT EVER think tt of your daughter. I DO NOT beg melvin to buy me stuff.. he just does becoz he loves me. is that fine with you?!?!? GOD....

then she makes matters worst by standing outside my door and going on and on..squeaking about how i run to her only when i have problems and then treat her lyke shit when i don't need her. God....what did i do to deserve this..*whining*..

Save me from myself please...

jellies that i made at 1am the previous nite... was rather restless..hehe


kk..signing off..goodnite world..gotta catch some slp before all hell breaks loose tmr.. NiteZ~





my impatience... my downfall

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another slpless nite...the guilt.. the discomfort in my soul. Its indescribable.... its intolerable..

My impatience, My tendancy to get irritated easily. My extreme mood swings that with the touch of a button may swing me from the highest of heavens to the pits of hell. My frustrations, My insensitive being. My rashness. My indecisivness. My insecurities... all these..my vices..my weakenesses..i'm ashamed by them, gripped by them. They pull me down, drag me around. My simple mind put at the mercy of these vicious creatures tt seem to assume a life of their own. growing to enormous sizes..towering over the goodwill tt liveth within. I wish i can break free... then I wldn't have to hurt so many pple in the midst...

Public apology to Melvin:

Baby..i'm so sorry for our recent squabbles. I knoe its just me...i'll blame it on myself.. Clearly i've been rather impatient and hot-headed recently. I can vouch tt this is not derieved from my frustrations from my dissatisfaction of u, coz u're simply the best i cld not ask for more. Rather, its just in my nature tt i be all of the above. I never meant to hurt you reallie..but its inevitable.. for tt i'm deeply apologetic. hunnie..pls forgive me alright? I still love you..and this silly gurl here is silently hoping tt u'll still love her...

I set out on a narrow way many years ago
Hoping I would find true love along the broken road
But I got lost a time or two
Wiped my brow and kept pushing through
I couldn't see how every sign pointed straight to you

Every long lost dream led me to where you are
Others who broke my heart they were like northern stars
Pointing me on my way into your loving arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you

the race...

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Goodness, i'm aching ALL OVER... curse my laziness. Obviously preparation for the event would aid to lessen the agony of the race. But being the lazy person tt i am, i gallantly signed up for the standard chartered full marathon without realising the importance of proper training. Haha. Oh gosh, so now i've to pay the price of my insolence. *Groanz*... to think tt i was still contemplating whether to run the night before. Haha. Damm... it feels as if every single muscle in my body has experienced trauma. During the race, every muscle existant in my calves underwent severe cramps at different portions of the race, from the toes to the arch. Sometimes even simultaneously...gosh, I got so high from all the pain, was practically laughing and tearing at the same time..insanity! despite tt, i pressed on, cursing and swearing all the way. Haha. Thanks baby for seeing me through.

The only thing that was on our side was the weather which fortunately was cool and breezy. However grey skies overhead and the slight drizzle gave the event a sort of dreadul feel to it. Pass the 30km mark, looking around, the roads were quiet..with just the soft patter of footsteps from the competitors and the occasional shouts and cheers from onlookers. I was intrigued by the idea that below the peaceful surface, the thoughts and determination in these runners minds prevail. Their silent struggle against fatigue, pain...and their admirable mental strength to pull through. Though the runners run seperately, there was a secret bond amongst all. The common desire to reach the finishing line burned strongly in each of them. Indeed the mind can be a powerful tool..

some more pictures...


kok vui, sze fei and jonathan
the aerospace running junkies -- nerds in skool and sportsmen out of their books
jon, kok vui and zhenhan kor kor...proudly donning their finishers tee!
jon, jingwei and chuyi (wat a sweet darling to come support her bf.)

the end is finally here!!! + Vivo

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after smelling the sweet air of freedom for about approximately all of 10hrs on friday, the reality of the amount of workload and preparation left to do for the upcoming R.A.T race came back to kiss my ass...God..haha.. but i will not complain..Nope...hehe..

Saturday...was a fantastic day.. Had soo much fun with baby. Firstly we went to ViVO!!! seriously, i don't see what the hype is about. Its a typical shopping mall reallie with a larger than life complex. But other than the huge crowds swarming around every nook and cranny of the building, having ALL the popular housebrands such as Forever21, Mango, Topshop and Gap under one roof which obviously makes shopping a very convenient experience and the fact that the enormous complex allows for much walking activities..i wld have to say tt ViVo is just another shopping mall..the same old BORING place.. but somehow these places just seem to draw the crowds. Guess its true that sporeans live to shop. The sad fact of life. Haha... However I have one important point tt really helped to set ViVo apart from the other malls... its huge glass panels featuring a stunning view of the jetty and sentosa. Definitely serving as a beautiful backdrop for fine dining purposes. That wld have to be their major selling point which evidently ViVo has already managed to work to their advantage.

Some snapshots of ViVoChildren's play haven...


little boi playing in the pool..awww..ain't he the cutest thing?












sweet...





the ugliest, fugliest shoes tt ever existed..CROCS!!!

and guess wat?!?!




the evil me forced Baby to try on a pair...just for my entertainment. Tee Hee



Oh goodness..after all that trudging up and down the packed corridors, my feet got kinda tired..haha.. told u the place was GIGANTIC! haha..so me and baby left for a better place.

THE DAILY SCOOP!!!

ice-cream galore!!! it was heaven on earth... haha. the daily scoop being located in the very secluded neighbourhood of clementi offered a fresh alternative to the many other popular and more commersialised ice-cream parlours present in our shopping complexes. They focused on using fresh ingredients to derieve new and queer flavours that u wldn't usually find elsewhere. Personally i would recommend the lychee martini (which packs a punch..so beware), the bailey's chocolate chip (this is really really good with a strong dash of baileys which so happens to one of my most favourite drinks! haha)..But then..we tried out the other flavours. Baby had hazelnut haven with waffle and I had ginger crumble with brownie. It was indeed a perfect pairing..the ginger crumble tasted authentically of fresh ginger meaning the 'la' flavor was there with every bite. Yums..a bit queer but it was really refreshing..

okie... some bad news. tomorrow's the standard chartered marathon. Reallie scared considering that I haven't been training up much for this event. And fact is... its gonna be 42.195km!!! NO JOKE man!!! So all I hope for is to cross the finishing line in one piece. THats all I ask for...

the end of the road

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made a major fool of myself today in the exam hall...didn't knoe my seat no. before hand, but thought tt since i was always the last in the whole cohort. I cld go in there and probably find my seat with ease. Oh well i did.. but somehow the arrangement was a little swopped and i got rather confused..so there i was standing up changing seats last minute in front of the entire hall. WAHAH..damm i shld have entered last!

staring at the sheet of paper..i was appalled at the questions..'hey, wait a min..this has nothing to do with wat we've learnt in aerodynamics..'

in fact, it was more like a pure physics paper.... and not an easy one at that.

so there i was working on my paper, scribbling furiously..(hmph maybe not so furiously) and in my head, there was this really irritating tune on repeat mode. my goodness, i swore i was perpetually bobbing my head up and down to the rhythm. Later, i went home to search for that song. And here it is..

Voila...

Afroman - Because I Got High Lyrics
I was gonna clean my room but then I got high
I was gonna get up and find a broom but then I got high
my room is still messed up and I know why
- cause I got high [repeat 3X]

I was gonna go to class before I got high
I coulda cheated and I coulda passed but then I got high
I'm taking it next semester and I know why
- because I got high [repeat 3X] I

(just a little abstract of it..coz its a reallie crude song.)
so tts it! I'm done with exams for this wretched semester. I walked out of the hall with a contented smile on my face. walking through the gates of hell, my skin still red from the leaping flames of fire. still feeling a little numb(for the moment)... but think i'll warm up to the fun awaiting me sooner of later...Heh.




i love my toes.. heh


my little board to keep me organised over the holidays..woopie!
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