Bon Appetit

Bon Appetit

Hurray!!! the dinner was a success.. at least by my standards. Though we recieved some feedback tat the courses were too 'high-class'... pea and mint soup for starters... Oh well. So much for trying to introduce new finer cusine to the church people. haha. least the kitchen crew had fun in the preparation process. Chopping 50 onions (which happened to be an error in the printed recipe)..haha.. the mad rush trying to toast the garlic bread.. and blending the mystical soup. It was all hell break loose in the kitchen. But i must say the results were great! Thanks Junneng for managing everything and entrusting me with the important tasks of doing the desserts and of course to the wild and wacky kitchen crew. We had so much fun!!! haha

so here are some pictures of the mess we created in the kitchen plus the totally divine desserts. *wink* ... its just so enlighting to see people smile and rave over ur desserts... Not to mention, the weird pleasure i derieved from seeing pple fighting to take a snapshot with desserts tray. haha. I mean you dun get to see an assortment of 6 desserts on a tray everyday... haha

oreo cupcakes

Oreo Madness

half done..haha.. here's presenting u my little beauties.. they weren't too much effort actually but they are devilishly sinful. haha.. enjoy...

hopefully the rest will turn out well tmr. If not i'll have to bake another batch of cupcakes just to make up for it. In fact, i've already got the alternative plan drawn out. If it doesn't work..i'll be baking oatmeal banana cupcakes with cream cheese frosting instead. sounds good? *wink*

baking frenzy!!!

70 hungry tuan qi pple = BAKING FRENZY!!!

gosh..was pulled in to do the desserts for tuan qi anniversary dinner tmr. Which wasn't such a bad idea altogether...but for 70 people!?!?! *peng*... (to admit it..i kinda got a shock when i heard it. Frankly, with the budget allocated to us. Its rarely possible to create a decent meal, what's more with desserts.) u've got to be kidding me! haha. But still we've got to get down to business..

so presently on the desserts menu we have:
  • Tiramisu (proudly brought to u by the lovely sisters, Abigail and Ruth)
  • Bailey's cheesecake with chocolate crust
  • Chocolate silken cups
  • Oreo Cupcakes
  • Lemon Pound Cake with Lemon Butter Icing
  • Apple Crumble Pie

*gulp*...i hope these wld suffice yar. Tried my best to think of wat to prepare.. i mean with the time contraint and the lack of equipment, its hard to come up with a impressive menu to 'knock the socks' off the tuan qi pple. Haha. Hope whatever we've done will do the trick. hehe. Okie.. half done.. lets prepare for the battle ahead!!! bring the batter on!! RAWR.. (crazy gurl.. WAHAHA)

mariah carey rockz

Mariah Carey simply rocks my world man..

my new repeated song on my playlist is 'My all' by her... love the latino feel to it... plus the lyrics are just beautiful. The control she exerts and her exuded range in the song... woah..i hold nothing but admiration for her.

I am thinking of you
In my sleepless solitude tonight
If it's wrong to love you
Then my heart just won't let me be right
'Cause I'm drowned in you
And I won't pull through
Without you by my side

I'd give my all to have
Just one more night with you
I'd risk my life to feel
Your body next to mine'cause
I can't go on
Living in the memory of our song
I'd give my all for your love tonight

BEE-UUTI-FUL lyrics.. heartfelt and chilling to the bone. Sigh.. wat a cold and lonely night...

lotsa baking to be done tmr. YAY! excited and thrilled about the process. Baking is just simply a joy on its own.

BUt for now, gotta hit the sheets first. Fatigue sets in and the night wears on...

flying lanterns

more laughs once more. a vow to stop the mutual teasing lasted a little more than 10mins before yiguang broke the magical spell by mentioning the words 'jp'.. haha. you owe us ALL tea yar!!! haha.

so product for today..

a flying saucer resembling a chinese lantern... haha. its working principle.. hmph..i have my doubts. but oh well..lets just hope it will fly.

went home today to a very successful chocolate silk pie..absolutely gorgeous, the richness and the density of the pie achieved by the slight tweak of ingredients. Instead of the large amount of cream and butter in it.. it is replaced by silken tofu... haha..sounds weird but trust me. its texture is just out of this world, indescribable. Love it to bits. And it makes it all the more healthier thus removing a little guilt from indulging in that tiny piece of pie. MUAHAHA.

recieved a pleasant surprise in the letter box today as well. A pair of invites to the New Levi's Copper Jeans Fashion Show at the Singapore Fashion Festival. Woah..haha.. tts soo cool. Leads me to wonder.. why wld i receive the tickets when i'm not even a member of Levi's? haha..weird..

without you

must be Samuel's fault. After so much drilling from him..i came to realise again tt Mariah Carey was a GREAT singer. THe power in her voice, the control.. her emotions. Amazing.

as a result, I've been playing this song on repeat mode for a gazillion times!!! haha. Definitely my favourite song coming from her. *smilez*

Anyway, its official, my design group is INSANE!!! haha.. when we're together, we spend more than half the time suaning and shooting each other down. haha. Think Yiguang and his special *ahem ahem*.. the squabbles, the dreams.. haha. hmph..maybe something will work out yar? what say u sir yiguang? hehe. On the serious note however, this is seriously detrimental to our group's progress and efficiency on the job. BUT what the heck!!! haha..everyone cld use a good laugh once in a while. we're a bit on the extreme side though. Its like a case of a pack of hyenas gone wild. MUAHAHA.

whatever it is..i just pray and hope our rescue vehicle which is looking more lyke a toilet bowl now will achieve take-off.

photo of my group from last wkend during the shopping trip

our group doing our usual tea breaks -- teh gang! RAWR!!!

phantom of the opera

swinging chandeliers, enchanting backdrops, the majestic orchestra. All these added up to the magic of the phantom of the opera.

A once in a lifetime, bestest experience by my standard...

I certainly enjoyed myself listening to the sweet sounds of the cast; the phantom's performance far surpassed my expectations and I was literally blown away. Swept away on a magical and emotional journey. Engrossed in the story, i was drawn towards the undying love of the phantom for christine. A love tt comprised of possession, patience, a need to be accepted. Never did i think tt i wld be swayed towards seeing the love from the phantom's point of view. It must be painful to watch ur loved one wrapped in the arms of another, declaring her love for him whilst you sit and wonder whether she will ever know of the undying love you have for her. Thinking that she will never want you, and tt u'll never be accepted for what you are... it's heartbreaking.

All in all.. it was a wonderful musical. Something tt 'ill never forget ever...

Today, met up with my design group to shop for materials for our design project. spent a whole day shopping man. Was completely EXHAUSTED. my team..are extreme tea drinkers man.. u have no idea how many tea breaks we had. Haha.. but at least we got some work done amidst all the laughs and jokes.. had a great chat with Samuel too, regarding his extreme liking for mariah carey songs. haha.. we both love 'without you' by her. Its a fantastic song by the way. haha.

kk..feeling extremely drained..think i've gotta catch some slp soon. *yawnz* my wkend..burnt again. Boo hoo..


tonight tonight!!! haha.. gonna watch the most spectacular of all musicals EVER!!! PHANTOM OF THE OPERA super duper! yay.. highly elated. For me, countdown started about 6 months ago when we purchased the tickets online. Seats were selling lyke hot cakes. Now, the day has finally arrrived. I'm sure it will be worth the wait. *grinning from ear to ear*..

Wait for the good reviews pple.

Meanwhile to my design group, see u all on Sat. and samuel..pls stop thinking about eating good food everywhere we go. Chinatown bak ku teh?!? haha.. are we doing a project here or taking part in amazing race? haha...

stupid boy

Well, she was precious like a flower
She grew wild, wild but innocent
A perfect prayer in a desperate hour
She was everything beautiful and different

Stupid boy, you can't fence that in
Stupid boy, it's like holding back the wind
She let her heart and soul right in your hands
And you stole her every dream and you crushed her plans
She never even knew she had a choice and that's what happens
When the only voice she hears is telling her she can't
Stupid boy, stupid boy

So what made you think you could take a life
And just push it push it around
I guess you build yourself up so high
You had to take her and break her down
She let her heart and soul right in your hands
And you stole her every dream and you crushed her plans
She never even knew she had a choice and that's what happens
When the only voice she hears is telling her she can't
You stupid boy

Oh, you always had to be right but now you've lost
The only thing that ever made you feel alive
Yeah, yeah
Well, she let her heart and soul right in your hands
And you stole her every dream and you crushed her plans
Yes, ya did
She never even knew she had a choice and that's what happens
When the only voice she hears is telling her she can't
You stupid boy,

Keith Urban - Stupid Boy

another touch down

Whoopee!!! done with technical comm report! the end of my nightmares of the witch. Tsk tsk. haha. Glad tt my group managed to string together the whole report the day before which meant NO LAST MIN WORK! *phew* tts certainly a relief. Thanks a million going out to my gorgeous group mates Catherine and Weiling! now it all boils down to our presentation skills of which i seriously lack. Argh.. so wish me all the best. heh.

Here's a picture of the light meter we borrowed from the photonics lab I from EEE. which reminds me tt i've gotta return it soon or the lab tech is gonna hunt me down. *gulp*

and here's another picture of the light trepasss situation in my room which our group made one of the test venues. Haha..wonder how can i slp with those lights on. Perhaps those are the reasons behind my overly vivid dreams EVERY NIGHT! haha.

kk.. lalala... off to print our Bee-youuu-tii- full report!!!

let me let go

I thought it was over, baby
We said our goodbyes
But I can't go a day without your face
Goin' through my mind

In fact, not a single minute
Passes without you in it
Your voice, your touch
memories of your love
Are with me all of the time

Let me let go, baby
Let me let go
If this is for the best,why are you still in my heart
Are you still in my soul,
let me let go

I talked to you the other day
Looks like you made your escape
You put us behind, no matter how I try
I can't do the same

Let me let go, baby
Let me let go
It just isn't right,I've been two thousand miles
Down a dead-end road

Let me let go, darlin', won't you
I just gotta know, yeah
If this is for the best
why are you still in my heart
Are you still in my soul,
let me let go

The lights of this strange city are shinin'
But they don't hold no fascination for me
I try to find the bright side, baby
But everywhere I look
everywhere I turn,
you're all I see

Let me let go, baby, won't you
Let me let go
It just isn't right,
I've been two thousands miles
Down a dead-end road

Oh, let me go, darlin', won't you
I just gotta know
If this is for the best,
why are you still in my heart
Yeah, you're still in my soul,
let me let go

Let me let go, let me let go


Once again, i am writing this entry under heart-aching conditions. I never knew i cld hurt tt much again. But just as it goes, everytime my heart is torn apart by someone.. a little part of me just fades away. Guess i'll never be the same again.

Thereafter, will it be just a downhill road for me? who wld pave the path for me again?

My triggered thoughts.. as random the shape of the clouds that float on by the sky during the day. Perhaps someday I'll understand what is going on in tt head of yours. Perhaps one day i'll understand why u can let me go. But until then.. my heart will never forget those lovely memories we had shared. Unfazed love, passion, endless surprises.. now all these are now just a thing of the past. A shadow cast upon me.. a dark cloud misplaced above me... with no wind insight. It rages storm and strikes bolts into the heart of me. I am lost.. i am...

A380: an even greater way to fly?

GOsh..its official, my back is broken. Must be becoz of all the weird positions i've been assuming in yoga class. Weird..but i still keep going back for more. Madness.

Came across an article in the papers titled "A380: an even greater way to fly". perhaps its just me but i find this publication very disturbing. haha.

so basically the article starts off with a simple sentence that blows my socks off. " LESS economy, more profit" OMG!!! somehow or another the equation doesn't tally in my head. perhaps only my aero design group will understand my frustrations towards this articled. FOr the benfit of you non-aero folk out there, it was a case of battling of wits in deciding our ticket prices for the economy and business class in our recent aero design project which was to design the interior of an A380. Our groups's mantra, more economy seats to secure a higher premium and do away with the first class seats as we see these as non-profitable due to its low filling capabilities especially during long-haul flights. Gosh..our directly opposing views to those stated by SIA have left me dumb-founded. Are we so short-sighted?

In the article it is stated that SIA has no qualms about pampering its higher earning clients as this is the niche market that sustains its business. Tt my group has failed to see during the course of the project. enough about our marketing strategy being highly profitable..just a load of crap. hehe.

weekend lunch

Weekend Lunch - Cousins are over.

these are my 'fellow tiger' buddy cum. cousin's toys..cute huh..for a while..they were my new web cam.. literally staring at me yar. Haha. Kk..those little imps.. browsing through all my photos on my camera.. naughty girls.

Sihan: 'Do you want to say anything?'

Yilin: thats not nice!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!.

Sihan: did u just call me a punk? argh...

Yilin:i think so????????????????????????????????????????????????.

Sihan: *PENG*

Note: my cousin is 9 yrs old this year. we can actually communicate.. my goodness... what levels i have to stoop to. hehe.

one down...

One down..many more to go... Sigh. Felt a tiny sense of relief after our group wrapped up our first aerodynamics project today. For you non-aero guys out there, the project was basically about designing the interior of a A380 plane( mainly using solidworks).

Just wanna thank my group members for their devotion and contribution to the project. Amazingly my group has wonderful chemistry...(erm..pingting ALWAYS getting bullied by the guys.. hey guys..give her a break sometime too k? haha) and work together reallie well. In fact, our members haven't slept much he last week rushing the project. We only have the crazy deadline to blame yar. So in order to avoid such a situation again especially ard the exam period, we HAVE to start early... hmph..maybe we'll take a well-deserved break yar... hehe.

Gotta adopt more positive mindset to all these but i think tts rarely possible yar considering the short time span of time allowed and the immense amount of projects thrown at us. Dear Mister Shaker, we are aero students; supposedly the "best of the best" yar, but we're but humans after all. Everyone has to start learning to walk by first crawling yar. So do pls cut us some slack sometimes orite? Sigh.

Aerodynamics, Aeromaterials project, aerodynamic ca, technical communication..sigh..a little too much for my poor soul to bear. But then again..perhaps its for the better. Keeping on the run would help me to stop thinking nasty thoughts. *weak smile*... perhaps its a good thing after all.

virtual insanity


feel so empty inside...

guess my brain isn't working any longer.

I crave for sleep.

Bloody Shaker...

Incoherent sentences.

i seriously need a nap.

you'll think of me

Keith Urban -- You'll think of me

I woke up early this morning around 4am
With the moon shining bright as headlights on the interstate
I pulled the covers over my head and tried to catch some sleep
But thoughts of us kept keeping me awake
Ever since you found yourself in someone else's arms
I've been tryin' my best to get along
But that's OK
There's nothing left to say,

Take your records, take your freedom
Take your memories
I don't need'em
Take your space and take your reasons
But you'll think of me
And take your cat and leave my sweater
'Cause we have nothing left to weather
In fact I'll feel a whole lot better
But you'll think of me, you'll think of me

I went out driving trying to clear my head
I tried to sweep out all the ruins that my emotions left
I guess I'm feeling just a little tired of this
And all the baggage that seems to still exist
It seems the only blessing I have left to my name
Is not knowing what we could have been
What we should have been

Take your records, take your freedom
Take your memories I don't need'em
Take your space and take your reasons
But you'll think of me
And take your cat and leave my sweater
'Cause we have nothing left to weather
In fact I'll feel a whole lot better
But you'll think of me

Someday I'm gonna run across your mind
Don't worry, I'll be fineI'm gonna be alright
While you're sleeping with your pride
Wishing I could hold you tightI'll be over you
And on with my life

So take your records, take your freedom
Take your memories I don't need'em
And take your cat and leave my sweater
'Cause we have nothing left to weather
In fact I'll feel a whole lot better
But you'll think of me

phantom of the opera

Sun shines thru the dark clouds...

sunbeam no. 1:
Phantom of the Opera concert!!! (i'm gonna be watching the opening night show!!! YAY!!! its gonna be spectacular i tell u. best seats in the hse too! nothing beats tt man. Haha)

sunbeam no. 2:

its simply the best yar... supposedly..its meant to benefit the nervous and glandular system, quieten the mind and recondition body and soul.. Sound good? to me at least. Gotta build up the physical strength and balance to manage more advance poses.

sunbeam no. 3:

Music and Lyrics

he's outta my life

its official. He's outta my life.

my sombre attitude towards the whole affair that took a turn for the worst

overnight has left me alone... all by myself. Been hanging on for too long, even the last piece of thread has been removed from my grasp. perhaps it has been the cold attitude, his nonchalent responses, causing my fragile heart to harden. I shall no longer question myself, to blame myself for everything that has went wrong. its about time i packed up and hit the roads again, face the wretched world with whats left of me. I will not fall and I will not falter for the Lord walks beside me on my treachorous journey.

JUst like the lyrics from far away by nickelback

cause you knoe,

i love you,

i loved you all along,

and i missed you,

been far away for far too long.

I keep dreaming that you'll be with me

and you'll never go.

Stop breathing if

I don't see you anymore.

Take care..( dun work urself to bits okie) and may you achieve whatever u aim for in life. God bless.

this is Sihan.. signing out.

anger management

*i will not let this get to me* chanting *i will not get angry*...


TA MA DE!!! (all the vulgarities spill out)

Just Like before......
Everything you say to me
Takes me one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break
I need a little room to breath
Cuz I'm one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break

got shot down..

another eventful day..

came to skool today and to our delight our aero design group were delighted to observe tt only sunil was ard to make the evaluation on our first presentation. Unfortunately, being the third group lined up, we were unfortunate enough to encounter the situation where our dear SHAKER made his grand entrance... gosh, then, we knew we were in for it. Guess like the Samuel said, that man is seriously lacking love in his life so much for so tt our plan was some sort or launching an attack on his soft-spot, archilles heel. As a result, he showed strong dislike or resistance against anything our group said throughout the presentation. We knew we were done for... Oh well.. what can i say.. his expectations of his 'bright and brilliant aerospace students' are certainly over-bearing.

then the rest of the day wore on..followed by the maths quiz.. gosh.. for me it was O-K. was astonished by the fact tt i cld at least derieve an answer for both questions given tt I have hardly touched any tuts the whole semester *woops*. Yep..but it certainly is a minor achievement and worth me waking up early in the morning at 3am to revise. Tee hee.. guess u all must be thinking i'm nuts now. LOOK, i had no choice ok..had a super early night k..was just tired from all the thinking. haha.

kk.. starting to feel very slpy..gosh. gotta prepare for bed now lest i fall asleep at the computer again. Bah..back to school tmr again... dreads..

what good is a heart?

what good is a heart if you're not gonna use it.
what good is a love if u're not gonna choose it?
ur heart is beating and its for a reason.
if you're not willing to start, what good is heart?

sometimes life pulls the plug on something u think can last forever. I agree tt we do not have control over certain things in life no matter how much we want to be in charge, to dominate the situation. But God holds the winning hand, so we have to do his abiding. That part I do understand. But still i venture on my relentless search for love and freedom... like a blind rat in a maze. Bumps and bruises are bound to occur.

u tell me that i'm slipping thru our fingers. But has it ever occured to you that perhaps you're the one not holding on tight enough? Being in the ever viscous state that i am, i am bound to runneth over.

the last straw...

a negligble existance..

an insuppressable pain...

a head full of messed up thought...

will you love me again?

u learn something new everyday...

i guess its true..u learn something new everyday.

here's a fact of the day for u:A lux is equal to the total intensity of light that falls on a one square meter surface that is one foot away from the point source of light.

hehe..pardon me for the hard core facts..its tech comm at work i tell you. Haha. Just got hold of the lux meter today and without any technical advice from the lab staff at all, we're sent off on a journey to explore this gadget explains why i'm stuck in the computer lab now doing some minor research. Thank goodness the apparatus ain't tt hard to manage. Hey..its worth at least S$200 k..dun play play. haha

NOw..I'm caught in a whirlwind of jobs and tasks to fulfill. Gosh... one of the most massive ones on my hands now wld be the subject matching with my 'future' school *praying with hands tightly clasped*.. Gosh.. they dun even have the specific subject codes and modules online lor. LOUSY!!! haha. oh well.. its gonna be one hell of a ride trying to fix everything up. Thank goodness for Sui... everything seems better having him ard. tee hee. *smiles*

There's just so much to work on now.. yet my mind still drifts off into a world where anxiety and depression takes over. I've got to let go.. seriously..this is not doing me any good...

orite..luv u all. Gotta get down to business right now. Facing the witch in a few minutes time..

just heard of some people spoiling market in our design project.. ANIMATIONS and DESIGNER TOILETS?!?! wth..

i'm not at home in my own home

the week slipped beneath my fingers. Its weird how fast time passes only when u've not enough time. For me, most of it was spent running the extent that I'm a tad worn out. But in any case... I let my mind run a free sprited child in an insane venture for freedom. Howeverm I am but a prisoner to my own emotions. contradictions... my life is in no shortage of this.

Recieved a piece of funny news a few days back. A trial at something out of the ordinary has seen me opening a path like no other. BUt being the wild child tt i am, instead of serious contemplation, I have jumped at the opportunity. apparently, my application for instep has come through and i MIGHT be on my way to poland, warsaw university of technology next semester. the reason why i stress on might is that all this is still tentative as subject matching and the rest of the tiresome stuff comes straight after. the thought of being in an exotic country..far from just something so intriguing. a chance at escapism... for now..we'll just have to see how it goes. I am elated at the results though. Congrats to all the other sucessful appeals... Janan, Samuel, Gun Kiat and Kianping. of course to my Bestie yar.. ( its more than just coincidence yar?)

in a while.. I'll be on my way to town. Made a drastic move a few days ago, signed up a short stint membership at true yoga I thought tt it wld be highly beneficial and i entered the program hoping tt my leg wld make faster recovery. I'm just thrilled at all the equipment and luxuries enjoyed by members.. the gym is HUMONGOUS i tell u!!! haha.. u must be thinking i'm sort of a mountain tortoise right? haha.. maybe i am. So will be attending yoga in a short moment... feels kinda weird in tt sense. But oh well, everything good is worth a try right?

surprise call

got a surprise call from the states this morning. Guess who? (no prizes for guessing..) PINK PONK PAUL!!! haha..what a pleasant surprise.. Thanks dude..certainly made my day.. (to paul: *silent plea*..come back come back!!!) hehe.

enough of the nonsense.. since its the first day of the month. Decide to make an effort to post an entry up. However encountered some sort of writer's block... Guess with all the raw emotions flowing ard these days..its just hard to pen it down.

ever encountered a time when u come across a song tt expresses all of your own emotions. Here's one for my current state of mind.

Listen -- Beyonce

To the song here in my heart
A melody I start
but can't complete
Listen To the sound from deep within
It's only beginning to find release

Oh the time has come
For my dreams to be heard
They will not be pushed aside and turned
Into your own all 'cause you won't listen